Acceptance

I'm learning to accept the things in life that ar painful, but won't change. I'm learning the true meaning of "it is what it is." I have gone from depressed (repressed anger) to angry. It's good that it isn't being repressed anymore. But I have seen what I can become when I let anger control me and I never want to see myself that way again.

I have a strong desire for justice. But I'm learning that I'm not always going to see justice (or see it the way I think it should be played out). And I can't always be angry about that. Ultimately I'm not the one in control of justice. God is. Vengence is the Lord's. So I have to accept the situation God has placed me in and be patient and longsuffering. The way I've been doing things isn't working so I need to change. I need to accept things the way they are and learn from them instead of being angry that things aren't changing and aren't the way I want them to be.

This is actually freeing. I don't feel bound to anger. I don't feel bound to a responsibility to change things that aren't right. I feel like now I'm really allowing God to be in control. By his grace I'll continue to learn how to do this.