Don't worry about it...

When I make progress in terms of spiritual/character/personal growth I become afraid that I will "relapse" and go back to my old, unhealthy ways of thinking and being. But I have to remember that I can't change my heart. The most I can do is be willing and open to the Lord doing that for me. Even if I do "relapse", it just means he's still working in me. My desire is for love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control in fullness and completeness. But, I can only be where I am. I have to be patient with myself and wait on the Lord.