There's Always Something

If it wasn't one thing it'd be something else. I have been struggling with health issues for over a year. It's highly frustrating because I don't have health insurance. I HAD charity care but that only went so far and I can't figure out what in the world is wrong with me. In October I began to feel all over pain in my muscles and joints. I went to a rheumatologist, but test results came back normal. And now I'm experiencing hair loss. This is extremely frustrating because I no longer have the resources or means to figure out why this is happening. Another thing that makes it frustrating is my mother. She thinks I'm a hypochondriac so when I go to her for some kind of comfort (bc my freakin hair is fallin out and I'm scared I'll lose it all) she just brushes it off. Can a sister be heard, understood, and validated for once?

*Sigh* Once again I have no one but God to fall back on. It's been like this since I was a child, but I know that I'll be better for it. It's just hard learning these lessons. I know that when I'm in those lonely, hopeless places and I really think I need another human to validate me that's when God will meet me. He does every time. Meets me right where I need him.

So prayer is needed for healing. My prayer is that I'll not only be healed in body, but also that this situation would be used to heal something in my soul. This reminds me of a quote by Brother Lawrence, "The Lord often sends diseases to the body in order to cure the disease of the soul." This quote was actually the inspiration for the title of my blog because uses, not only sickness, but all kinds of painful things to make us better. This is the only knowledge that is helping me bear this pain more easily.