Beauty in Pain?

I've heard the phrase that there is beauty in pain. You know that old Edna St. Millay poem about having rainbows on your eye lashes from tears type stuff. I think it's crap. The only way beauty comes from pain is if there is victory over that pain and somehow you come out better than what you were before. We all want stability. We want to feel stable, we want to be in stable environments, we want to be treated with stability by stable people. We all want that. No one wants to be in pain. I'm really sick of this cycle that instability and pain has brought me into. My soul wants more for myself, but the instabiliity of my environment won't allow for it.

Dreams Par Deux

I've been having strange dreams lately and I can't seem to figure out what they're about.

The first dream:

Me and a friend were coming from this concert. One of the owners offered us free drinks if we got the dancing started. We got the dancing started. Fast forward we're on our way home and we realize that only she got the free drink. So we decided to go back and get my drink (I know silly right lol). So we go back and right when we start talkin to the owner this panic or fear breaks out and we're all running trying to get away from whatever it is that started the panic. And the club is like this maze like thing that we're just trying to get out of. So we finally make it out the club and we see what people are running from. People are dropping dead all around us for no apparent reason. Almost like the movie "The Happening." I was freaked out. The guy who was running in front of me it looked like his neck broke and he dropped dead. I thought I was next so I kept running. My friend was still with me. I thought the people who were dying were gonna turn into zombies, but when they died they stayed dead. We ran until we found this RV/trailer type car. And the owner let us ride with her to get away. It was really weird in her RV. There was a dead fetus wrapped in paper which was hella strange, but she was our only way of getting out of there. Then I woke up.

Second dream:

This dream started out really weird. I was at Burger King and they had this new food, better than burgers. They had my favorite curry chicken so I got that. It took them forever though and I never got it. It's me, my nephew and another friend there at BK. I never got my food so we left. When we get out there is panic. We start running again, but this time we are running from zombies. We are trying very hard to find a vehicle or something to get away from all the zombies. Every where we turn another person is turning into a zombie and chasing us. I found a train station and I'm hoping we can get on a train to get the heck outta dodge. But for some reason I just couldn't get in the train station. It was like there was a force field and it was so aggravating cuz I didn't want anything to happen to my nephew. So we just kept running and I woke up.

I can't figure out what this stuff means...Maybe they're just anxiety dreams or something...

Glee 2x03: (Sue Sylvester & Religion)